I have waited patiently and tried my hardest not to harass any of those amazing ladies over at The SITS Girls and it has FINALLY paid off. Today is my SITS day and I am hoping my writing or my pictures or the lack of obnoxious background music, wiggly font and flashing pictures will keep you here for a few moments.
Anyway.
{Nervously shuffling before my speech}
Ahem.
I started blogging because I used to have free time and a huge belly full of triplets.
Who knew a triplet pregnancy would bring on a barrage of questions from everyone I made eye contact with?
Hiding behind my computer and answering them all at once seemed the perfect idea.
Thus this place and my frequent use of the phrase “didn’t you read my blog?” began.
And then I stopped.
Our daughter, one of our triplets, passed away as an infant.
I could not imagine writing, or talking or doing anything other than burying myself in taking care of my children.
I can’t remember why, but one day I had the urge to start writing again. Reaching out a nervous hand, I returned to this space.
My readers collectively reached right back and pulled me up.
Since that day I have been lifted, carried and supported on my journey when I’ve needed it most.
And my journey has changed.
Through loss I have learned to soak up the good moments rather than drown in the bad.
Even though my vision is often blurred by tears, I have never seen life more clearly.
I hope you will join me on a winding journey through meltdowns and belly laughs, preschool and high school, over-cooked dinner and ice cream for breakfast…
with a thread of gratitude I am forever weaving through it all.
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I'm Jessica, 30-something mom to five, four in my arms and one in my heart.
WooHoo Congratulations on your SITS Day!!! I hope you enjoy every minute of it.
YAY!!!! So happy to see you over there today! Enjoy your day!
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Congratulations on your SITS Day Jessica!!
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YAY!!!!!!! Congrats sweet girl!!!! So well deserved!!!!
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Congrats on your SITS day!!! Love you dear friend. xoxo
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I have been following your blog for awhile, so I was SO excited to see you featured on SITS today! And this post made me cry. You are strong and wonderful!
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Happy SITS Day to you! So exciting
I know anyone who comes by will be compelled to stay in your lovely place.
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Congrats on your big SITS day! Thank you for sharing your journey. I’m very glad to have found you, through SITS, in this tiny corner of the world wide web!
Happy SITS day to you!
Congrats!
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Congrats on your SITS day!!
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Hi Jessica, stopping by from SITS to wish you a very happy sits day and I hope you have a blessed day:)
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Hi I’m a new follower. I love this post. I’m so glad I found you. I am a mother of 7, 6 here on earth and one angel in heaven. I had a missed miscarriage at 11-1/2 weeks. It always helps me to hear others share about their loss to come to grips and make sense of how I feel about it. Baby would have been 7 yrs old in -August and the middle of the 6. Looking forward to following you.
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So glad you stopped by Salena, loss changes us forever doesn\’t it? So sorry all of your babies are not here with you.
Congratulations on your SITS day. I love it when I know the featured blogger!!
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Congratulations on your SITS Day! Have a wonderful day!
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Great Pictures! Happy SITS days!
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Hi sweet Jess, you continue to amaze me and watching you thru this journey helps me walk it too. Always beside you, and sending love to our heavenly babies. Good job momma….love, nan xxxooo
So good to see you hear and to have you always beside me. Miss you like crazy and so forever inspired by your strength.
Happy SITS day! You have a wonderful blog! I am glad that you reached out and started writing again!
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Blogging can be such therapy, can’t it!? I’m so happy that you’re still focused on seeing the beauty in life…how can you not with the blessing of ALL of your beautiful children. I gave birth to my twins at 20 weeks and it was the most devastating period of my life, but now I’m stronger. So happy to “meet” you. Happy SITS day, girl!
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Congratulations on your SITS day, and for being such a strong person. I love your idea “soak up the good moments rather than drown in the bad.” That is great advice and a great attitude. Enjoy your day in the spotlight!
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Have a great SITS day.
You have amazing courage and strength and via your blog you are lending it to others, thank you for sharing it.
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What a beautiful introduction to your blog! Makes me want to keep reading. Have a wonderful SITS day!
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And now so many more people will find you and see your heart, your warmth, and your amazing writing gift.
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Happy SITS day, friend!
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That was so beautiful.
Who wouldn’t follow you after that intro of all intros.
I love your site, your writing, your true heart.
Congrats on your SITS day. We’re all so happy you’re here.
And,yes: blogging has saved my life, too.
You’re the best, girl: and I love you.
New here, SITS visitors? This is one lady who always has the funny, the party, the community, the love, going on.
A must follow.
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Thank you. I have such a hard time writing “About Me” posts even though I can talk about myself to know end on my blog. So glad you liked it.
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Have a wonderful day! I love your introduction! I know others will too.
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If I didn’t already know what you were all about, I sure would now. Great write up, STAY AWESOME. Do I sound like I’m writing in a high school yearbook? Congrats on your day.
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Love when a blog from my reader is the SITS spotlight! Congrats!!
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Have a joyful SITS day
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Congratulations on your feature day, I’m so looking forward to a full morning of reading your blog! I too share a little angel in heaven, though I never had the opportunity to meet him/her other than in my heart…your strength, and heart are so encouraging I know to so many!
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Enjoy your SITS day — hope it’s full of wonderful new friends you meet.
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how awesome you are featured today! yeah! I love your blog, following you now:)
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Congrats on your SITS day! Enjoy your day in the spotlight!
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Congrats on your SITS day! I love your blog, you are a strong woman and it shows through in your posts, great job!
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Enjoy your SITS Day! You’ve more than earned it!
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Congrats on your SITS day, and I continue to be touched by your story.
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Beautiful, beautiful blog. Happy SITS day to you.
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Congrats on your SITS Day! I hope you get a million new followers out of it!
Actually, I’m sure you will!
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Big congrats on your SITS Day! We all have our sadness, but I think blogging really helps. And reading other blogs, too!
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happy sits day! you have a beautiful and inspirational blog. your story brings tears of both sadness and joy to my eyes. xoxo
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Congrats, beautiful, classy mama!
Happy SITS day, Jessica!!
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What a lovely blog you have!!! Happy SITS day! How lovely that your readers have given you so much support. I think gratitude is the key to life. It keeps us from becoming embittered, unhappy people.
Congratulations on being featured today! Sounds like we have a couple things in common – I have a son with Asperger Syndrome (I commented on another post of yours), and I lost twin girls when I was 22 weeks pregnant (in 2002 – they are in my heart forever). I think I’m going to have to start following you!!
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Yay!!! So happy for you! Enjoy your SITS Day!! xoxo
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Beautiful-Happy SITS Day to you!
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I love this. And you. Good grief, this is gorgeous.
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CONGRATS!! I’m SO glad you returned, the Internet wouldn’t be the same without you!
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How wonderful to cross-paths with people like you and SITS has made that possible for all of us. I’m touched by your post to-day. You have a heart-warming, beautiful blog and I’m excited to be of acquaintance. HAVE A WONDERFUL SITS day.
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Happy Sits Day! Your post today was very heart warming, going to go check out some more now. Have a blessed day!
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Yeah! happy sits day sweet friend!
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You are so thoughtful and genuine. It’s a honor to follow you on your journey. And congratulations on your SITS day. You deserve it!
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Happy SITS Day Jess! So awesome that you’re featured and you SO deserve it! I love the pics and always enjoy reading your blog
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Congrats on your SITS day!
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Happy SITS day! I am your newest follower and look forward to reading more from you! Will be poking around some old posts today getting to know you a little better!
Happy SITS day! Such a thoughtful blog about such a beautiful family. I’m so glad I stopped by!
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Happy SITS Day! I love your photographs, they’re all so beautiful.
Awe, congrats Love! Such a deserving honor, and I just have to say this line “Even though my vision is often blurred by tears, I have never seen life more clearly.” so beautifully written. You touch my heart every time I stop by for a read! Congrats and hugs.
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Happy SITS Day! I can’t wait to read more.
Aw, Happy SITS day beautiful! <3
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Happy, happy SITS day! May you meet many e-friends today. I am off to read more posts – been here just soaking up your amazingly positive attitude!
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Congrats on your SITS day!
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Happy SITS day! May your coming years be filled with more happiness.
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Congratulations! Patience is a virtue (or so they say).
You are a beautiful person and make the world a better place by sharing your stories.
Thank you and I hope you have the best SITS day!
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Hooray!!! So excited to see it’s your day!
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Congrats Jessica! You deserve this day! You are such a bright ray of sunshine even after all that you have been through. Quite an inspiration.
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Congrats on being F/B! Enjoy your day as Queen!!!
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Congrats on your SITS Day!!! What sweet pictures!!!!
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I actually found you through The Mom Pledge Community! Your story is one worth writing and I will be back to read more! Your family is beautiful!
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You totally deserved this day!I can only imagine what’s the feeligk like! tell us more!!
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Hey Jessica! So glad to see you returned after such a devastating loss. It’s pretty amazing how much strength you can gain from writing and communicating with your readers. Happy Sits Day!
Congratulations on your SITS day. I hope it’s a fun day for you.
This is a great introductory post.
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I’m so glad to have found you through SITS. Your story breaks my heart and amazes me all at once. You are one strong lady! Also, I laughed out loud at your comment about the obnoxious music. I have my computer always silenced, because I hate being startled by music on peoples’ blogs.
Jessica, nobody is more deserving…hope your SITS day is amazing!!! Just love you and your blog
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congrats on your SITS Day! I need to get back into there…my impatience got me…sigh…after only a couple of months…
Hope these people stick around!
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Hooray, you! Congrats! xo
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So glad to have come across your blog. Can’t wait to dig in!
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First, congrats on your SITS Day! Proud of you and hope it brings a bazillion great things your way. You have serious strength and you are admired
What a story! Thank you for sharing it here. Congratulations on your SITS feature!
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Congratulations on your SITS day. I am so blessed to already know you. It’s like a good neighbor getting a fun gift. Enjoy.
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Yay for a SITS day! For anyone reading, you need to keep reading. Jessica’s blog is beautiful and funny and inspiring.
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You are so sweet, still thinking about my rainbow from yesterday, thank you again!
Happy SITS day!
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Congratulations on your SITS day! You so deserve this!
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Happy SITS day to you! I hope it’s been blessed!
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Absolutely amazing, my dear…and congrats to you!
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Happy Sits day! I am looking forward to reading your post about the mom tattoo!
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Congratulations on your SITS day! I hope that it was a simply amazing day for you!
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Congrats on your SITS day. You inspire strength in other women, so keep on moving forward with an open heart as you have already done. Cheryl
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Congratulations on your SITS Day. I too would like to stalk the girls but, like you, I will wait patiently
. I loved your blog. Thank you for sharing. I know you are helping others daily!
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Congrats Jessica. You deserve this honor.
Congratulations on your SITS Day…it about time!
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Congrats on your SITS Day Jessica! Best wishes!
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You’re an inspiration to us all. Thanks for sharing your life and its lessons! And congrats on being the SITSta of the Day…
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You have SUCH a beautiful family! Thank you for sharing your stories and your blog!
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Woohoo!!! Congrats, Jessica! And what a beautiful post to go along with it. XO
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Happy SITS Day. I am sure that you enjoyed it and hope that you have found some life long followers.
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Congratulations….I think you’re amazing and I’m not surprised!
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Congrats on your SITS day! You have a beautiful family. I hope you had a great day, both online and off! =)
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Happy SITS day again. The lack of background music is refreshing, and these days, it’s quite unusual to see a site with a “regular” font, huh? (Not that I dislike wiggly fonts or anything, but you know.)
I am sorry for your heartbreaking loss, but lifted up by your outlook and incredible attitude of gratitude.
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Jessica…hope you enjoyed your day in the spotlight. I have enjoyed looking through your blog. You are a beautiful mother with five beautiful children. Thanks for helping me remember to enjoy the simple things in life!!
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Well, I’ve been meaning to get over here forever – and your SITS Day is as good a day as any! Hope you enjoyed your moment in the SITS sun! What a lovely post. You’ve been through so much and your attitude is inspiring.
I love your blog…you are so strong and it clearly shows through in your writing. Congrats on your day! Enjoy it!!
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This is beautiful. I hope you have had a great SITS day!!
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Happy Sits Day!
I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. I cannot fathom what it would be like to lose a child
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Happy SITS day! What an inspirational story you have. Thanks for sharing it.
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Congratulations!
I had chills reading this post Jessica!
Your writing always connects so well with your readers.
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This (like all your writing) is so beautiful, Jessica. Congrats on your SITS day–I can’t think of anyone more deserving. The picture of with your belly marked up (A, B, C) made me tear up a bit. You are such a strong and courageous woman and I am so glad that you have found this community again to lift you up when life brings you down. It wouldn’t be the same place without you.
XOXO and have a great day.
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The blogosphere is a better place because you got that urge to write again.
Happy SITS day
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I’m so glad your day came! Happy SITS day!
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Wow. I am superlate to the SITS party (but you already know I love it here no matter what day it is)!
So congratulations, my friend.
No one deserves the support and the spotlight more than you.
Hope you soaked it up!
XO
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Congrats Jessica. Love your writing, your pics, and you. Keep going….
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I am so glad that you got your day and that you started blogging (again). Thank you so much for sharing your story. Take care.
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Oh congrats! How very exciting for you. Hope you get lots of new followers that realize how awesome you are.
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You are so sweet, thank you!
Happy SITs day. You are a wonderful writer, and I look forward to reading more.
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I can’t believe i missed your SITS day! I suck. I hope it was a wonderful day!
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Congrats on your big day! I love the intro about yourself. I have a hard time writing about myself in that way. I can’t wait to follow along and read more.
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Yay for your SITS day! But mostly yay for you, because you are so wonderful and you help so many people along the way.
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Happy SITS day to you! Couldn’t have happened to a better person.
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Happy happy day!!
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