I commented on a photo of a rainbow someone posted, about how much I needed it, how much rainbows remind me of my daughter and how much I needed a little hello from her that minute. A well-meaning person responded with something to the effect of “I read your story and I could cry all day for you.”
If I knew this person or if I wanted to go on a crazy social media hunt to find her contact information, I would tell her thank you.
Thank you but please don’t cry.
Don’t cry for me because this is what I have.
I have rainbows if I tilt my head just the right way,
children who talk to their sister in the stars,
butterflies that flutter past, two yellow, one orange, when I wish for one more set of footprints to press in the sand.
I have extra I love you‘s and nap-free days and twenty pictures of every moment and just one more story because it is all delicate and fragile and a memory we have made that could just as easily have been taken away.
So maybe I am chasing rainbows
but I don’t miss a single color streaming by.
Linking with Just Write and Wordful Wednesday
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I'm Jessica, 30-something mom to five, four in my arms and one in my heart.
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Alison@Mama Wants This recently posted..There Is Light
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This is lovely. Obviously there is absolutely no beauty in Hadley’s loss, but I really do believe you and your family have found such grace in your daily lives. Your words are a light that will help others find their way on their journeys of grief as well.
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Have I told you how amazing I think you are? This writing is so heart-squeezing and inspiring. I hope you always see your rainbow!
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Following every storm, there is a rainbow…
The Mommy Psychologist recently posted..I’m Done Sleeping With My Husband
They do talk about her all the time, I noticed it this weekend so many times, heartbreaking and heartwarming, both at the same time. They love her, as you love her, and I wish you did have your third set of footprints. Lots of rainbows this weekend…
Have I ever mentioned that I love you.
Love your outlook and that you can find her where ever your feet are planted.
You are an amazing, strong woman…I hope that every grieving parent comes and reads this post.
You are helping to heal hearts my friend xo
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Aww, thank you so much. I hope that people who are at an earlier stage in their grief do read this because there was a time I never thought that I would get to this place I am in. Love you and your amazing spirit too.
Jessica recently posted..Rainbows
I love how your perspective allows you to see the rainbows that so many miss!
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In each day we all find something to look for things to remind us….
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Sometimes in the sunrise, other times the ocean waves crashing against the rocks….
Rainbows, full of promise….what a beautiful reminder
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Love this. So beautiful. You are so amazing.
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I love that you notice each and every one of these little signs. I dream that my boys will be close. That they will hold a special bond that ties them strongly together no matter how far apart they will be. I can’t tell you how much it makes my heart grow every time you mention that they talk to her, or mention her. I love it.
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Knowing all to well exactly what you mean. Love to you xoxoxo
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Lots of love to you too Nan.
So beautifully expressed- your heart is beautiful! I love the picture…it is a gift!
you have such a wonderful way of communicating what so many are thinking.
Those who are experiencing what you are and can’t find the words find such comfort in what you write.
I hope you know how much you are helping.
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Gorgeous picture with that sun streaming through the colors!
Lady Jennie recently posted..Young Lady’s Prayer
Isn’t it? I had no idea I caught it, was just taking a photo of the boys.
I love rainbows too. They are a theme in my Egret the Elephant stories. One of my favorites is Egret and the moonbow. I’m not sure how I had never noticed one until I was an adult an out running one night. There was just enough cloud cover the make a halo around the full moon. I thought of so many people when I saw it and wrote that story. Some past, some alive. Its one of those memories you just treasure.
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I love how you remind me to slow down and enjoy the little things.
And that maybe nap free days can be fun…. maybe.
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Nope, even when you slow down nap free days aren’t really that fun. They just take longer to go by
. We are going to be on the west side of the state a few times this summer. I will have to find out where you guys are and hopefully we can meet up.
Awesome! I love rainbows, just the other day I was reading a post about rainbows, how they are scientific, we as humans create them with our own eyes. They are called photoreceptors. I love this post so much. Rainbows are a blessing in disguise, it’s God’s way of saying thank you.
so beautiful. thank you for sharing your heart.
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This is absolutely breathtaking. Thank you for this and your strength and willingness to open yourself up to us all.
Jessica recently posted..I want to be here when I’m here
Perfect. Rainbows and magic and love. All things of beauty and hope.
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Beautiful. Perfect.
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Damn woman you make me smile. You’re just plain awesome, ya know?
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You are so sweet, thank you.
Beautiful words, and heart, you.
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You are an amazing person. LOVE!
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Beautifully said my friend. xo
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What a beautiful picture… perfectly captured too.
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This post made my heart feel good. You put something so hard to find words for into something beautiful. As for the photo, I think the rainbow was there with you all for a reason.
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I think so too Kristen
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I love this – more than you could ever know.
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Thank you so much Stacy.
I love that you can appreciate every color of the rainbow and that you are so open with your story and with your love. This is simply beautiful.
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Beautiful post. I will be chasing rainbows an treasuring every color with you.
Lanie recently posted..Miscarriage
Oh, Jessica…that picture! It’s gorgeous. She knew you needed that rainbow at that very moment.
xo
Runnermom-jen recently posted..Everyone Has a Story
I didn’t even see it until after the picture was taken, we were all amazed. She was right there, as always.
There is always a rainbow after sorrow. I am very much proud of your Jessica. You really are a strong woman.
Those colors can be hard to see; you do it beautifully.
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Its beautiful…
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Yes, the rainbow is breathtaking.
Oh, my heart. We have way more with us than what we have lost. I know that’s hard to believe sometimes, but it is so true. Sending love, as always. xoxo
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