Life after loss with one teenager, two surviving triplets and a rainbow baby
She interrupted my bedtime tale to ask if we could call her.
I wish we could call her sweetie, I whispered, my voice holding quiet, strong.
These conversations becoming as much a part of our day as haphazard art projects and tumbling forts.
But we can call her Mommy because it’s nighttime.
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I'm Jessica, 30-something mom to five, four in my arms and one in my heart.
On any given day you will find me taxi-ing a teenager, mopping up our latest "art project" and trying to remember when I turned the crock pot on… all the while, looking for the closest Starbucks drive thru. more
That was beautiful and touching, Jessica. Thank you for sharing that with us. xo
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Can I be angry again for you all?
This is the most amazing and touching story of sisterly love, of course. You are raising a woman with a beautiful heart.
But damn it. She shouldn’t have to feel this way.
Nor should you.
Natalie @MamaTrack recently posted..Essence of Now (May 18, 2012)
You can. This year’s been tough for me and I think it’s because I see how much our loss affects my children, especially McKenna. She would be in her glory if she had a sister to do all the girls things with that she loves so much.
Ohmyheart Jess, this is stunning. Their love (that you taught them) is stunning.
(my next shiny star words are for your H.)
xo
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I would love that Galit. Thank you. xo
I absolutely love this. That star shines bright in the sky.
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Your blog really touched my heart .. like it a lot .. Thanks
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Oh precious, precious.
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What you write, just…puts it all in perspective, Jessica.
Thank you.
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I love the balloon picture. It reminds me what we do on my mom’s birthday. It’s probably not the most environmentally friendly thing, but we send balloons up to “heaven”. I think even at 5 Josh knows they aren’t really going to Heaven but he seems to get the symbology.
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My heart is broken at the sweetness and sorrow in that comment and photo. {hugs}
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Very sweet. And believe me, I don’t say that much!
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This takes my breath away, Jessica.
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Oh sweet McKenna. You’re right! She is up there listening to you and watching you!
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I can’t imagine the type of friend McKenna will be, with her heart so full of love and empathy. But I am so sorry for all of you that it’s not so easy to just ask her sister to come home. I will think of M & H both now when we look at the stars.
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oh my word this is so beautiful.
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Maybe all our shiny stars are playing together . . . I find myself having more and more of these conversations. It is so hard to come up with answers when I myself do no understand. xoxo
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I hope they are playing together. It must be the age, mine ask so often now, especially McKenna and it is so hard to answer. Because, like you said, we don’t understand it either. xo
Tears. Streaming down my face.
So lovely and so wise.
Holding all of you in my heart. xo
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Thanks so much Kristen, sending kleenex.
Mommy is our love, mommy is our heart and mommy is our life. I want to love my mommy in my whole life.
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♥
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I just got chills and my heart broke into a million pieces.
I can’t imagine how it felt for you.
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That so much pain can create a beautiful post like this continues to amaze me.
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…and I am reminded again, that death does NOT end a relationship. It is the children that sometimes remind us. My heart goes out to you and yours. I am sorry for your loss. ~Wendy
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This was absolutely beautiful.
No words.
Just love.
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No matter how much I prepare myself, your pieces still emotionally overwhelm me… in a good way. I’m careful, though, to time my stops here because I just get so weepy. Just lovely, Jessica.
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Sorry it my blog is such an emotional place to stop but thank you so much for visiting.
Oh, I love your passion and emotion that goes into your posts! You just have a way of tugging on my heartstrings! Don’t stop… I love reading your blog.
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These words make my heart full and ache all at the same time.
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This is so touching – every word. And that photo is perfect.
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Just beautiful. Does it hit you like a ton of bricks still when your kids ask questions like this, or bring her up? I know that my kids are always asking things out of nowhere (it seems to me, anyway) and I’m never prepared for it.
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This is beautiful. I know everybody already said that, but I had to agree. Thank you.
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Oh my goodness. I’m so touched by this. And by your incredible strength!!! xoxo
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Breaking my heart, and yours I know…even more…
Oh my heart and all of yours. xoxo
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Amazingly beautiful. She is wise beyond her years.
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Every time I come back to this one, it takes my breath away and makes me miss her with a fierceness.