When the big becomes small

how time changes your perspective on things

I took Sawyer for his Last Ice Cream of the Fives and while his feet dangled under our chairs at just the right height to repeatedly scrape my shins he asked the deep questions of an almost six year-old. When did you know I was in your belly? What was it like when I was in […]

Tablet giveaway!

Kids learning tablet giveaway

A few months ago I wrote a post about the realities of homeschooling and now that the school year is almost over I’d like to amend my list to add about 300 more things. The first one on my new list would read something like “if you give your kids the laptop to play educational […]

Building towers

Building children up

I didn’t realize why Sawyer volunteered to go to the grocery store with me until we got to the check out. I was speed-unloading the cart when I looked up to see him building a tower of produce, soup cans and ice cream (in that order because tomatoes make the sturdiest tower base, I’ve heard). […]

Woven

In the beginning it was the minutes, the hours, the months. I tried to remember every detail, the weight of her in my arms, the almost-blue of her eyes, the shape of her eyelids as they closed. I felt panic rise as the days passed and memories blurred, I couldn’t forget a thing. She was […]

Autism and wandering and AngelSense

autism and eloping

I shared this story several years ago but wanted to share it again because it’s such an important issue and because I’m working with AngelSense to help keep kids with autism safe. One of my closest friends has two boys with autism. I have watched her unload them from her vehicle, clinging to one while holding her leg across […]

I’ll put the sugar in your bowl

mothering as your kids grow

Most mornings Parker wakes up at the sound of my laptop opening. He flops into the living room bleary eyed and I close my laptop before it gets a chance to buzz alive. I tug him close as he changes the channel from Good Morning America to the one full of superhero names I can’t remember. After he […]

An emergency of the best kind

adult life with autism

This afternoon I carried Sawyer to the car without shoes, Parker and McKenna ran behind. I told them they didn’t need to grab their coats, just hurry, hurry, hurry. Ashlyn ran out with headphones dangling from one pocket, trying to stuff a cell phone into the other. A phone call two minutes prior had shot us into […]

How I answer the infertility question

infertility awareness

This week is Infertility Awareness Week. Did you know? I didn’t until I saw it on Facebook. But years ago I would have known. I would have been the poster woman for infertility treatments. Stomach like a pin-cusion, bruised arms from bloodwork, waving my sign for better insurance coverage and more research. And then our treatments finally […]

Love you is two words

practicing conscious parenting

Sawyer has this sing-song-y way he says “love you” that is so sweet I can hear it in my mind as I type. He strings out the “you” at the end while he looks at you like you are the greatest being on his planet. Sometimes he says it over and over before bed because he’s so […]

Necessary conversation

Talking to children about grief

A few years ago I blogged about one of the first of many heart-wrenching conversations I had with my children after they asked a question about their sister. I received a nasty comment from a reader telling me that if I had not been “selfish” and told them about their sister I would not have to talk […]