Holding on

kids on July 4th

When my kids were younger and their cuteness was compacted into three feet or less I often had the urge to scoop them up and carry them when they didn’t need carrying. Whoever’s cuteness I was trying to wrangle would resist, of course, because generally toddlers only want held when they are sticky and you are […]

Their story

holding preemies

I’m not sure which one of them told me their version of the story first but I know they were wrong. They had gotten ahead of me, as they always did and figured out a story that I hadn’t yet told. Bedtime books and too much Elmo were to blame. My children thought they followed the […]

Riding a roller coaster as a mom, this is not a metaphor

amusement park with kids

Over the weekend we took the kids to their first amusement park. I have not been to a place like this since before I had children. That might have been almost two decades ago but one second into our first (mini)roller coaster I was shocked right back into memory of who I used to be and what parenting […]

Because you are my youngest

boy sleeping

Because you are my youngest I am writing your birthday post two days after it passed. I’ve exchanged filling in your baby book for keeping your brother from scaling the television while you teethed on my shoulder and your sisters cried on the floor. Your pacifiers were cleaned off on the thigh of my jeans […]

Rinse, wash, repeat

sawyer fishing

Our dryer broke on Friday or maybe Thursday, it’s all a blur of laundry at this point. The neighbor let me drag my loads of wet clothes to her house to dry and I’m sure she’s trying to figure my portion of her utility bills right about now after underestimating the volume of laundry I […]

Walk the walk

mom and daughter

McKenna has been looking at herself in the mirror a lot lately. Not just a little check of her fairy wings or wiggle of a loose tooth but long investigations of her hair, her freckles and the monstrous tooth growing into the space where there once were two. I sat at the edge of her […]

Oink

watching the pig

We’ve had a pet, seriously really a live one, for over three weeks now. And she’s still a live one. The house plant comparison is so not true and omg there are so many bacon jokes out there. I am still not used to people saying “your pig is cute” or “thanks for letting us […]

Dining with children

eating spaghetti

A year or so ago, in a moment of temporary insanity and empty cupboards, I took my children out to dinner. By myself. Pulling into the parking lot I felt empowered. They were getting older, only one runs from me the minute I let go of his hand and sure, all four of them can […]

What you can call me

My little brothers who might have called me bossy a time or two.

My 30 second caffeine gulping this morning coincided with Good Morning America’s preview of a new campaign to end the word “bossy.” Female celebrities and politicians and businesswomen flashed across the screen and the GMA anchor teased the segment that would land somewhere between my explanation of the necessity of toothpaste and why two socks […]

The kids are going to be just fine

kids in snow

On the way to pick up Parker I lodged our SUV firmly in a diagonal position in the driveway. I had already run back in the house ten times to find the perfect snack/drink combo to keep Sawyer quiet for the ride so I was left with about 15 minutes to complete the 20 minute […]