Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Mark and I escaped on a rare date night over the weekend and shopped with no timeline. We wandered through aisles looking for a few missing pieces for the kids’ rooms and I was caught off guard by how much we don’t need any more. I tried to cure my longing for all things small […]
I planned a late evening of writing tonight. After the kids were in bed and Mark was home I would pour a glass of wine and really write until the words swirling in my head emptied out a bit. Because I had grand plans, it is now well past bedtime and I am balancing my […]
When Hadley passed away, another grieving mom suggested I get a piece of jewelry to hold a bit of her ashes. I sat at the funeral home, looking through catalogs of jewelry I never knew existed for such a purpose, and settled on a teardrop-shaped necklace. I wore Hadley’s necklace every day for years, feeling […]
When I was a full of drama, teenager/middle-schooler/probably elementary schooler and preschooler too, I would stomp off to my room when mad. Shutting my door, I would flop in dramatic defeat onto my bed and sigh loud enough for the house to hear. Laying there, unsatisfied with the lack of results from my grand showcasing […]
-Mommy do you like rainbows because they remind you of Hadley? -Yes honey, I do. -Because when it rains on us she fills up her hands with colors and throws them all the way down? -You know what? I think that is exactly what she does. -Me too, Mommy.
The year after my daughter passed away I never left the house. I took care of my three living children without complaint. I denied the need for a break or a babysitter or earplugs and I told myself I was enjoying every single second because these little people could be taken from me without a […]
Cheeks red and aching from laughter, we headed to the car. I could feel little fingers wiggling through the mittens that met my hands and tried to slow their excitement as it seemed we were moving up and down instead of forwards. After as many snow-tubing runs as we could manage, we were still giggling […]
Last night I watched my first five minutes of American Idol since Season One. Despite my love of reality television I’ve never been attached to the show and the only thing I’m really sure of is that Kelly Clarkston won once. Right? Anyway, I put the remote down because the boy about to audition, Kayden […]
I never liked playing jump rope when I was in school. Jumping rope on my own, counting jumps next to a friend, singing songs I can still recite, that was all fine. I just didn’t like jumping with a group. At recess the line would form and we would wait our turn to jump in […]
Hoping Santa is good to you this year! Merry Christmas from our family to yours. ———————— Need some fun things to do over the break? Try my favorite indoor activities over at Childswork. Trying to get through the holidays with grief? I’ve written about ways I cope at Still Standing Magazine.
