Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
When I was 7 or 8 or 10 I was a champion water-treader. I was never graceful with the breast stroke or the butterfly and I can only imagine the site of my knock-kneed, stiff-backed dive, but I could tread water like no other. At the end of class we would march single file on […]
The paper is bending in my hand and he is looking at me with apology because he is an expert and knows surprise is not her specialty. She is heading for the door and I am telling her it will be quick and she will do great and what does she want when it’s over? […]
I am messing with the straps of my new backpack-thingy that has officially taken over for the diaper bag and my seconds are numbered. The biggest can undo everyone’s carseats, the littlest can work a minivan door like nobody’s business. My backpack adjusted, I fish for my camera as the moments to capture blur past. […]
I read the directions at least three times and have finally remembered at what temperature to preheat the oven. His knight hat covers my recipe book and I turn to get too snippy about the stuff, the stuff is everywhere. He has something up his sleeve or his knight shield or whatever you call the […]
Long eyelashes, not the luck of his mommy, poke at splayed hands. His flat palms press into the baby smush of his cheeks, round toes curl and bend towards each other, balanced on the couch cushion. So far from carpet. Closing my book I fold him into my lap, feathering it’s okay‘s, there’s nothing to be […]
An unfamiliar blend of sound bubbles from beneath the door. Not wanting to spoil conversation or interrupt the flow of smiles behind voices, I wait. Giggling warms me as I turn the knob, two heads bent, searching for end pieces, shaping a landscape hand over hand. I top off their sparkling juice and welcome applause […]
