Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Eight years, three months and 27 days ago our NICU doctor and his assistant gave us a report on the babies. It was a jumble of foreign terms mingled with Baby A, B and C ending with information I still don’t fully remember. What I remember is what came next, a few minutes in time I […]
When we found out we were expecting triplets I avoided the horror stories. I clicked away from tales of early labor, grim statistics and the unthinkable… losing a baby. I couldn’t bear to think anything could happen to my unborn children. Truthfully, I wondered how women who suffered the loss of a child continued on. […]
The year after my daughter passed away I never left the house. I took care of my three living children without complaint. I denied the need for a break or a babysitter or earplugs and I told myself I was enjoying every single second because these little people could be taken from me without a […]
Cheeks red and aching from laughter, we headed to the car. I could feel little fingers wiggling through the mittens that met my hands and tried to slow their excitement as it seemed we were moving up and down instead of forwards. After as many snow-tubing runs as we could manage, we were still giggling […]
Dear Hadley, I want you to know that yesterday was just for you. Your Daddy and I dreamt of the four year old you and how you would spend a perfect day. I shut the door to an overflowing laundry room and we ate out every meal. There was leaf-pile jumping and sword fights […]
