Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Mommy what is that time on the clock when you can wish for things? Do you mean 11:11, Honey? Do you sometimes wish for Hadley to be not in the clouds? Yes Baby I do, all the time. Today I will do my concert-show after dinner. I can’t wait to see it. And Daddy and […]
When I was pregnant with the triplets I spent at least half my days of hospital bed rest searching for a “Big Sister of Triplets” shirt. They were easy to find in size 2 or 3T but no where to be found in 12 year-old sizes. My excitement when I finally found one probably caused […]
I smell like gasoline and I just peeled off jeans covered with hay and my eyes are puffy but not too puffy to see my wine glass. We’ve been talking about birthdays and celebrating and what is the difference between your birth day and the day you have a birthday party. It seems, to six […]
McKenna is lining up Barbies at the window sill and huffing and puffing with an occasional “ugh!” as they refuse to stand. I’ve offered to help and so have her brothers but she has this stubbornness that she gets from somewhere and we don’t fit into the Barbie Fashion Show plan. From the window one […]
Everything has been new lately, new house, new school, new doctors, new hairstylist (more scary than a new doctor) and I’ve found myself telling certain stories over and over. One of them being the names of my kids and, when people ask, how we chose each one. I love telling each story because it takes […]
Being outnumbered by small children lends itself to a particular phenomenon that I have a hard time putting into words. Since it’s hard to explain I thought I would give it a semi-creative title, create a barely-fancy illustration and share a story to cover all my bases. Lost In Translation When I had three kids […]
When Ashlyn was four or so and going through all kinds of medical tests, as kids with autism do, I remember one particularly awful appointment. She needed to be sedated and her IV wouldn’t go in and then she fought the anesthesia and I stood there trying to hold her and not cry or scream […]
Mark and I escaped on a rare date night over the weekend and shopped with no timeline. We wandered through aisles looking for a few missing pieces for the kids’ rooms and I was caught off guard by how much we don’t need any more. I tried to cure my longing for all things small […]
-Mommy do you like rainbows because they remind you of Hadley? -Yes honey, I do. -Because when it rains on us she fills up her hands with colors and throws them all the way down? -You know what? I think that is exactly what she does. -Me too, Mommy.
When I was pregnant with the triplets I dreamt of the normalcy of their childhood. I’m sure normal and raising triplets don’t usually belong in the same sentence but in my mind they would. I looked forward to sitting still with a cup of coffee and a mom-friend, watching our kids at dance class or […]
