Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
When my kids were younger and their cuteness was compacted into three feet or less I often had the urge to scoop them up and carry them when they didn’t need carrying. Whoever’s cuteness I was trying to wrangle would resist, of course, because generally toddlers only want held when they are sticky and you are […]
Over the weekend we took the kids to their first amusement park. I have not been to a place like this since before I had children. That might have been almost two decades ago but one second into our first (mini)roller coaster I was shocked right back into memory of who I used to be and what parenting […]
Edited to add: I’ve learned so much since I wrote this pig post years ago. What’s that saying? When you know better you do better. So in good consciousness I have to change the message of this a bit. First, it is still 100% true that we loved having a pig for a pet. She […]
When we were driving by our current house over and over again, hoping the sale would go through, I used to look around at everything. I wanted to take pictures of the worn barns, the restored and not-so-restored old homes and the horses and the tractors causing us to go 40 miles under the speed […]
I do not envy celebrities, especially not when they are young. I feel like the old lady sitting in a rocking chair as I shake my head at the ridiculous stories of what these kids have done that pop up daily. The five minutes I manage to watch of Entertainment Tonight always shares a new […]
We are in the middle of moving and this week has tilted me completely off center. There’s no morning schedule of coffee then oh-shoot-we-should-be-out-the-door-already. The kids have missed their 2pm chill out time with Peppa Pig and I have missed sitting down for that millisecond between getting someone’s juice and fixing the zipper on someone […]
There are days that creep by slowly, ebb more than they flow. Morning comes before my eyes open and bedtime comes long after they close. I check the clock one time too many, linger in a chair long enough to want to stay. I bury myself in peeling stickers off walls and fastening princess clothes, […]
Seventeen years ago, while Ashlyn flipped in my belly, pressing to my ribs, I watched the terror of the Oklahoma bombing unfold. Full of pregnancy hormones and fear, I felt the urge to walk with my arms wrapped around my expanding stomach, protecting my first born from the world I was about to bring her […]
Over the loud music of a car ride home we would talk about the future. Ever the dreamer and planner, I had it all figured out. I would never wear mom-sweats (today’s yoga pant). Makeup would be a must before leaving the house. My pedicured foot would never touch the gas pedal of a minivan, […]
I found this list of instructions supposedly taken from a 1950’s high school home economics textbook, teaching girls how to prepare for married life and thought I would see how I compare, using the past week as an example. I’m pretty sure I’m as 1950’s as you can get… 1. Have dinner ready: Plan ahead, […]
