Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Everything has been new lately, new house, new school, new doctors, new hairstylist (more scary than a new doctor) and I’ve found myself telling certain stories over and over. One of them being the names of my kids and, when people ask, how we chose each one. I love telling each story because it takes […]
Crying from upstairs sends me skipping our stairs as I wrap my robe. He never wakes at night. My mind races to a fever or a fall, hoping it’s just a bad dream that I can talk away. Outstretched arms and trembling lips are waiting for me at the door, even though I could have […]
Long limbs stretch the length of my lap, auburn curls linger at my cheek. The melody of our rock lulls her sleep and I inhale her weight, her warmth. Melting to her, our lines begin to blur. I soak in the life I have missed and vow to never leave this space. As we sway, […]
Before you read this I have to take a moment to say how truly humbled I am to be nominated as a Woman of Strength by the incomparable Nichole of In These Small Moments. If you have an extra second you can view her beautiful post here. My blogoversary was two days ago. I have […]
Between my baby turning two this month and digging through pregnancy pictures I have been feeling a little tug for just one more. But really, I know that we are done. Just to remind myself, I am digging through baby things and dropping the big stuff off with my sister-in-law to sell at her garage […]
The nurses would always stop and ask if I wanted the volume turned off. My answer, the same every time. Laying in my hospital bed, I was lulled to sleep each night by the sound of three beating hearts. Despite the constant scares of impending delivery, their rhythms gave me hope. They were very much […]
I had thought Michigan State, possibly Law School. My locker partner and I, perfect roommates. She would take the top bunk, of course. Crooked pleats in my cheerleading skirt, the research paper for first hour, a curfew thirty minutes too soon, the stressors of my day. My hair blew in the breeze, the radio swelled. […]
“I never could have imagined that we would be doing this.” My husband said, shaking his head as he tied the last string on my hospital gown. I perched nervously on my unforgiving hospital bed, wondering how long I could hold out before putting on the awful hair net trembling in my hands. Two years […]
Today I am posting over at Mommypants. I have been nervous about this day since the moment the topic of my post found its way into my head. I emailed the amazing Cheryl with two options, a safe one and a not-so-safe one, and she helped me find the courage to choose the latter and […]
I am that mom. The one whose blog you may visit through guarded eyes, until you know I am having a “good” day. The one whose story you read with a tissue in hand, not quite opening your whole heart because it might just be too much to take in. The one who you talk to […]
