Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Motherhood is… frosting 24 cupcakes at midnight, getting up at 1 am to feed the baby and waking up with a bed full of little people by 5 relenting to socks with sandals, mismatched gloves, sunglasses and an inside out shirt with Barbie jewelry, on picture day telling the kids to stop licking the bowl […]
There are days that creep by slowly, ebb more than they flow. Morning comes before my eyes open and bedtime comes long after they close. I check the clock one time too many, linger in a chair long enough to want to stay. I bury myself in peeling stickers off walls and fastening princess clothes, […]
I see my kids almost all day, every day. Wiping peanut butter from faces, conducting toothbrushing checks and planting kisses, only to have my mommy-ing swished at and to watch the beginning of eye-roll practice. But sometimes I look at them, really look from close up but far away, and have to bite my tongue […]
You know those stories your family or friends tell over and over when everyone needs a laugh? My family has a large collection of them. They tell them when there’s a lull in the conversation or when there’s not a lull in the conversation and they just want to laugh at me. I’m an avid […]
When I was young I had this vision of my future self, married with kids. In my spectacularly clueless vision I was dressed in one of those flowy white sundresses and running through a field (tall, blowing grass of course) with a long line of blonde children and a gorgeous husband. No one was fighting […]
We drove to the airport Sunday as my dad flew home from Florida. McKenna stared out the window as we arrived, “there’s no snow! It’s spring!” She followed with ramblings of our afternoon plans, the park with Daddy and a bike ride and then a picnic in the backyard. Somewhere lost in five year-old translation […]
Over the loud music of a car ride home we would talk about the future. Ever the dreamer and planner, I had it all figured out. I would never wear mom-sweats (today’s yoga pant). Makeup would be a must before leaving the house. My pedicured foot would never touch the gas pedal of a minivan, […]
I found this list of instructions supposedly taken from a 1950’s high school home economics textbook, teaching girls how to prepare for married life and thought I would see how I compare, using the past week as an example. I’m pretty sure I’m as 1950’s as you can get… 1. Have dinner ready: Plan ahead, […]
If you stare at something long enough it will blur. The haze will stay until you blink, clear your view, and look again. I have been a mom for 17 years, six months and one day, I’m still caught off guard at the job of this. I will sign a paper or get asked a […]
It started snowing this week just about the time my husband headed out of town and took my patience with him on a train five hours away. The kids were excited and couldn’t wait to play outside before my morning coffee touched my cup. I know, know, know I should have been excited and digging […]
