Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Waiting for his treat, he forces a splayed hand as close to my view as a three foot frame can stretch. I am about to drop them one. two. three. into his grasp until I looked down and see his hand waiting in true toddler fashion. Fingers spread, his palm urges upwards. Everything I hand […]
In case you haven’t heard because you have unfollowed me on twitter and Facebook to avoid my potty training talk, I am working as a zookeeper training the last of my kids. It is going pretty well. We’ve trained three before him so we know what we are in for and are always prepared. He […]
I’m not sure when I understood that he would just grow up. I wouldn’t debate when to introduce solids or record every new tooth in a baby book. I would blink and he would be running with sticks and requesting a Cars backpack and snack in a baggie not a bowl for his first day […]
Your Daddy and I were discussing our earliest memories. Whether we remember anything of our childhood before we turned three. Maybe a little, bits and pieces of days. You are almost ready for three. To remember. I wanted to give you one for the bank, from the year you were two. ——————- Last weekend we […]
I shower as the sun rises and before they realize it is a new day. Closing my laptop and vowing not to open it again, I gather the first of sleepy heads into my lap and watch his feet dangle, ever closer to the floor. There have been too many have to’s and one more […]
Capturing this conversation between my children and linking up with:
I have not opened a child-rearing book since your birth, but have piled you in the bed for one more nighttime story and ignored the clock when you handed me one more book. I used to adjust the bath water, over and over, feeling for the right temperature but for you I push up my […]
Long eyelashes, not the luck of his mommy, poke at splayed hands. His flat palms press into the baby smush of his cheeks, round toes curl and bend towards each other, balanced on the couch cushion. So far from carpet. Closing my book I fold him into my lap, feathering it’s okay‘s, there’s nothing to be […]
You know those children who open the refrigerator door just to get something to eat? Who let their parents handle the disposal of toothbrushes, and would never think of touching their mom’s make up, or taking more than just a square or two of toilet paper? Those children who can walk past a can of paint […]
I catch him just in time. Reaching down before we head in, I tuck his pacifier inside my purse. That was a close one. She greets us happily and we go through the current wave of germs plaguing our home. New meds, run the humidifier, the basics of our never-ending visits. Almost done, he hasn’t […]
