Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
Long limbs stretch the length of my lap, auburn curls linger at my cheek. The melody of our rock lulls her sleep and I inhale her weight, her warmth. Melting to her, our lines begin to blur. I soak in the life I have missed and vow to never leave this space. As we sway, […]
The cutest pink converse high tops dangle from my toothpick legs. These shoes are the best. They were so expensive I think. He lifted me into the big truck so they wouldn’t get messed up in the snow. Mom would be so mad if I already wrecked them. Oliveoil he calls me, from Popeye, you […]
I had thought Michigan State, possibly Law School. My locker partner and I, perfect roommates. She would take the top bunk, of course. Crooked pleats in my cheerleading skirt, the research paper for first hour, a curfew thirty minutes too soon, the stressors of my day. My hair blew in the breeze, the radio swelled. […]
My usual post is for The Red Dress Club but as I read the prompt my mind was blank. My amazing and very talented writer of a friend, The Crayon Wrangler (if you have never read her words you must go now), suggested we write about what takes us to our “Happy Place.” In theory […]
They knocked on her door. She let them in. Little eyes peering through the crack, they knew what was in there. All four feet of its ghastly ugliness, screaming when’s the next trash day? Ribbons of sea water blue twisted with dingy pale and streaks of salmon. Together with eyes of, well, of a gigantic […]
My feet pound the path. I weave my latest in a long line of must-have baby-mobiles through the curved path, rows of pine bend at the waist, bidding us past. My husband, he strides, love and purpose in every step. Oh, he is stopping again, a shoelace undone or a coveted sticker has floated off. […]
My trembling hands brace the walls as I shift down the hall. Pain searing through my abdomen, anchoring in my heart. My mind had finally succumbed to sleep and now the ache was soaring ahead of my last dose of medication. No need to wake my husband, immersed in sleep he so desperately needs. I […]
Oh, you came. I’m so glad. Wasn’t sure if anyone would actually show up. Sure, I’ll help you load them up in a sec. I’m just getting our new “area” situated out here. What’s that? Oh, no, we’re not moving, I’ve just had enough. These matters will now be handled outside. Yeah, I guess it […]
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name… Boy, he is loud. His voice, a deep baritone of strength, bellows over the sea of gray hair surrounding us. I mouth the words I’ve said three million times while tracing the grooves of polished wood holding my hymnal. That book must weigh at least […]
I was almost to the bottom of the pile. Stacks of clothes begging to be sorted by size and season and gender, all discarded into a heaping mountain in the corner of the closet. A nagging mess that I would get to one of these days. In an attempt to feign organization, I dove in. […]
