Life after loss with autism, preemies and a rainbow baby
The nurses would always stop and ask if I wanted the volume turned off. My answer, the same every time. Laying in my hospital bed, I was lulled to sleep each night by the sound of three beating hearts. Despite the constant scares of impending delivery, their rhythms gave me hope. They were very much […]
I love the weekly prompts at Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop but got so caught up in yesterday’s post that I missed them. When I saw the prompt to write a 6 word memoir of a significant time in your life I knew mine instantly. ————————————- “Would you like to hold her?” I have heard this […]
Preschool enrollment forms glare at me as I type. Stacked at the computer they have been sitting partially completed, for a month. The first several lines are penned in my neatest, I-will-be-the-best-classroom-volunteer-ever handwriting. The rest is blank. My perfect penmanship ends right after the line that asks for a list of siblings and their ages. […]
I begin to tuck them in. Lift covers up to the first little chin, shift hair, the color of my own, off his sweet forehead, and kiss pink cheeks. I lean over his sister, the final goodnight of our bedtime routine, and they are already climbing out. Tell us “The Baby Story” Mommy. My heart […]
Unblinking eyes look up at me and wonder, Mommy, can Hadley come to our birthday party when we are four? Eventually, I find my voice, She will be there. But only in our hearts, honey. And there is bitter in the knowing that there are years and years to come of birthdays with one empty […]
My trembling hands brace the walls as I shift down the hall. Pain searing through my abdomen, anchoring in my heart. My mind had finally succumbed to sleep and now the ache was soaring ahead of my last dose of medication. No need to wake my husband, immersed in sleep he so desperately needs. I […]
I was almost to the bottom of the pile. Stacks of clothes begging to be sorted by size and season and gender, all discarded into a heaping mountain in the corner of the closet. A nagging mess that I would get to one of these days. In an attempt to feign organization, I dove in. […]
You know you’re the mom to more than one young child when: 1. You have memorized the location of every drive-thru Starbucks within a 60 mile radius (or drive-thru anything for that matter, getting in and out of the car more than once per outing is not an option). 2. You never park next to […]
-So who is your Valentine? My mom asked my son, as he managed to sit still, for a moment, on her lap. -Kenna. Parker responded, giving my mom a dose of his heart melting sweetness he balances so well with his over the top trouble-making abilities. -Awww, she is? Parker you are so sweet. And […]
My daughter’s pajamas are too small. So are my son’s. Oh, and the babies are getting snug too. Pajamas these days are not too expensive and I even have boxes full of hand-me-downs waiting for my youngest, but for some reason, going up a size tugs at my heart. I put off the transition as […]
